Seriously..

Am seriously disappointed, angry, upset, EMOTIONAL! You are getting more selfish then ever! You keep repeating the same thing over and over again. What is wrong with you dear? Really what is wrong?! I had enough. I care so much and this is what i get after caring so much for you? Everytime i just walk off away and you did NOTHING. What is this dear? So what if i really never come back when you think i will? Think about it dear..Please! I had enough of you this and that.. I give you space, i giving you this and that but feels like you taking advantage..Please dear, stop doing this to me. Is not easy for me to handle everything okay? Need you, need your help, need you to guide me too. Stop being so selfish and think about others. Please!

By your dearest kai.

Thank you dear.

Well, i felt that things can be way better then just now. Am sorry for my part. Just hurt to feel like i get cheated that is why am unhappy about. I don't know you understand me or not? and i think i really dont understand you well.. Am still working on it. Am giving you lots of space this days, if you notice. Am really unhappy with your friends. Dear, you can't tell all our stuff to your friends okay? I really don't like. So what if you are close to them? If you tell Jiselle about what happening to us, i really dont mind but not your close classmates. I am not comfortable about it. I never tell anyone about our problem to others, i will just tell them i argue etc..Well, maybe i do tell few details what happened but not all.. Some of them do ask me to break up with you which is, I DON'T WANT! cause if i do, am sure they want me to be together with them( either one of them). They are like devils trying to change my mind but they don't know how much i really love you and want you.

There's time i wanted to tell you that i wanna break up, but i think again. It will be just a waste.. Few of my friends really happy that we are so long together as a gay.. I know relationship can't always be happily ever after but i do still listen to you when you start nagging, scold me etc.. Cause i know you care and want things to change. I am trying to do something with myself which i can't cause you always start doing things that i dont like and make me fall and struggle to get up. If you know that, i have been closing one eye for all your mistake and i trying not to let it out cause i know things will turned out bad.

I shall go to bed soon..Is late and i know you have issue me sleeping late.All i want to say is, Thank you dear for all this while.. I want to be there when you cry and i want you to be here too when i cry. I love you dear.

Your dearest Kai.